In the name of YOU

The point of despair is always so close to me.

After any event & any challenge, I feel frustrated as soon as possible.

Honestly speaking, I like it.

The feeling of despair gives me power.

- for what?

- Obviously, to rebel!

- Rebel Against what?

- anything that I want.

-Even against me?

-Even against you...my Lord! Even against the ideology that says you exist! But…if I could see you. Only if I could see you..

- does it make any difference? I don't think so.

- What do you mean?

- I mean now you rebel against the God you can't see. at that time, you will rebel against a God who you can see! there is not much difference. isn't it?

- maybe… and may not be. I just want to know about all things. I rebel, but after any chaos I miss you. I hate your silence.can you believe me? Ok, I've lost my certainty and I can't see you, but until I find it, I at least can believe in a super power who I feel his sadness.

- and?

- and…I try to reconsider my behavior. ... deal?

- deal.

- just...

help me to find you…

this frustration is killing me...